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I remember when I first heard this song, about six months ago. The moment I read through the lyrics, I felt the emotion like a kick to my stomach. I remembered what it was like... 3am, feeling so desperate for someone, wanting nothing more than to be with them, feeling awful because you've let yourself become so vulnerable to someone who frankly doesn't feel the same way. Giving up on love but knowing your emotions are enslaved to it.

I don't know why I'm writing about this song. It came up on shuffle for the first time in a long time. Don't get me wrong, it's a good song. Good songs express feelings you sometimes just can't express in words. But there's nothing but awful connotations around it. On one hand I never want to feel that way ever again. But on the other, it's a sign that I'm not the cold heart I'm scared I'll become.

Can't avoid heartbreak forever, right?